A Love letter 💌✉️
Title: inspired by Source itself through form ✨ named Mr. Joe (FYJ)
In a world where we all are connected interdependently, the pressing need to connect, to belong, to associate is embedded naturally. We often find ourselves lost as young people, lost to the situation-ships of life, having no clues to where best fit ourselves with our different unique perceived worlds, that keeps glaring boldly at our faces. One would have to be very intentionally out to creating connections as the big picture starts getting clearer, as we grow into adulthood, working environments, community spaces, all exist to promote this very connection. Family, friends, any kind of gathering has always helped shape and mold our connections. Still, for everyone, someone has helped in building what we call a success (story in a world starving of love.) One way or the other, right? As a newborn baby, can clearly not fend for itself, It is indeed idle conversation to despite our being helped is fallacy.
As a child, I grew up as an observer, watching all around me. I saw my mom go out of her way to help others, and wondered why she didn't have such hearts around her. Who would have treated her just in the same light she had, in the same length, I mean, she had gone for others. I watched her closely enough to land on the realization that it is important to connect to positive energies that are genuinely out to also connect with you. A lot of me could tell connection needs neutrality at its core, as well as the desire to connect, or as well as desiring the connection.
Going with the question has always been me. Many unanswered questions grew me into a big observer. For the questions seems to have a mind of their own.
Who am I now? Resilient being on fire, out to express my ADHD gift of creativity. I have been going without any... without getting any applause, built, me into someone who naturally cannot understand those as any kind of motivation. Still, I believe to be the change I want to see in my reality. For I only see gain in genuine positive connections.
Someone called me reporting from the trenches. As I understand it, that is how their own relationship is with what we all exist within. Because if we truly can comprehend that there is no space or place that God does not exist, it would only be a shame to us the inhabitants to treat anything less than God we all exist within.
Standing at my backyard mirroring, watching the ongoing construction. I could see them assembling iron bars, and something caught my attention. First, it couldn't be just one person doing this work. He practically needed assistance to weld the bars together, literally. And then secondly, as if zooming in my attention to the ongoing work, the bars themselves couldn't stand alone if not connected together. They had to connect more than one bar together to weld them for it to stand, for the structure to stand, that even two bars needed support, If not connected together.
I could see the core point of togetherness, and the statement, No man is an island, felt more heavier than ever, as I saw how it plays out in our daily living realities.
I find myself with a pressing need for only genuine connection. For love would always bring about togetherness. Our very interdependent nature promotes connection. And as I am my mother's love, honestly, I can't help in stopping myself from going all out as my expression of love. I have already made my own share mistakes of trying to belong to a community of just mutual experience, contributing so much to build a space with them. But in this, I only repeated my mother's mistakes, which is begging for connection.
Losing both Facebook accounts in the process, which now looking back, only taught me deeply of non-attachment to service because it is not my work but what keeps me alive. So honestly, I don't have any hard feelings right now. So my not joining Facebook again is nothing personal. It doesn't just make sense to go back to the same thing and stand to repeat the same again. It's why I don't put myself up to repeat history of any kind, especially when love is infinite and will never repeat an expression. So why would I when I'm love?
But I don't have any regrets in expressing love genuinely. It even makes me smile remembering the excitement, the genuine excitement, to spread love to a community ruled by fear. Lack of love was easily seen. They didn't live in Nigeria yet couldn't stop complaining about things that I wondered, if it was real at some point, because I could see just how they lived their own fears. Yet this was me, pot calling kettle black. Now I learnt to not try and play God, for nothing is above God. And love is God. We are equally love beings, right? It's what brings about this words “love is love,” meaning nothing is above love.
I learnt to respect others' fears. I'm not trying to take it upon myself, and this for a fact brought me unbreakable peace. I learnt to leave a man with his fears and not make them mine, nor feed it any of my attention, as this would only work with the law of one that says anything we feed attention to would only receive our power to expand. Now, more than ever before, I am intentionally choosing, right? Choosing one thing that would expand energy, which is love. For love used itself to bet all that can exist. It is engraved into my very being, and I am certain that we are all simply remembering the process of “the age of love.”
L.A.W
Love has already won, because love always wins. Love. The age of love is everyone happy, is everyone happy with who truly feels safe to them, and healed people are not in competition with themselves. They are more collaborative, building together. Imagine a group of people genuinely happy to live together. They are all excited to play as a team, to build a dream they see for tomorrow. There is so much excitement in the air. More people that are like that in groups, helping each other.
On a larger scale, more creative ideas coming to life, as many people get busy in playing their own part genuinely for the greater good, as everyone's gains and prospers is in their different unique fields. The streets are all cleaned and stack neat, even in areas of Africa urban areas, and any place. All cleaned and maintained by everyone working as a team, building the dream world, We all now envision. It's only possible in love, genuinely increased all around.
We see so many misconceptions of what eeling good. And I am grateful to be able to identify this core truth: Love is the highest vibrating body, often representative, often represented on the justice scale of the heart and feather, having equal balance with a single feather. is the strongest emphasis on love, is literally light, as in the lightest weight possible, as in that shining light and its actually weightless nature that makes it the highest level of feeling good.
Yet to this statement, there is yet another misconception, as many would strongly agree that it is authenticity, which is the highest vibrating body. What I call lost in the maya of the half-truth, for the only positive thing you can truly be is yourself. How can anyone honestly feel good not being themselves? Some people think differently, not to see that, The only positive thing anyone can be is being yourself.
And exactly because I would always be myself is why I was initially pushed into isolation. In my case, I don't know how not to be myself. That is my issue. That I wish to duplicate myself just to enjoy myself by myself, and nothing sensual about it, because I am not gay, right? But I can't stop understanding this God we all exist within: is a spirit mind, without any form. Is what deserves all the credit for existence.
If we accept how we feel, has a lot to play in how we perceive the world. It will be clearer how, in just how being our true self is the only real positive thing we can truly ever be.
But instead we fail to see these simple truths and try to be positive about everything else aside being our true self. Like it can be pushed under the bus, yet this is the lie we tell. We claim to just connect for work's sake, saying as long as it's peace and it is not illegal. If the employer was a killer, rapist, child trafficker, it isn't all that important to create connection? The system is already corrupt: Many would say, I am only trying to get by the day-to-day living, not responsible for the system I have come to meet. And if you can't beat them, you still have to survive.
We do anything to be accepted, losing ourselves in the process, just for the pay. Yet, the original business at its core was to help love beings grow in love.
So my sister and I were trying to have a conversation on this faithful day. We talked deeply about appearance, why I don't put any effort to appear more when I don't have anything comfortable to wear. Yet, see this. She's the same person who would complain about “how would you know so and so about people” when we are all using ourselves to be acceptable by someone else. To be received nicely: That we fake not just appearance, but personalities, faking our true expression to fit in to spaces and places. And when we grown fed up with pretending, performing the act, you then hear more words like; "How would I have known she was pretending to love me? So that I could spend on her?" "But when she's the one to help, she would cut off, calling you extra community, that I don't feed." " But it was okay when I was the one feeding her." But for me, all I see is my mother's love: going all out for someone who wouldn't move an inch, if you had a similar issue or in need of help.
Even though I don't pay deep importance to appearance, doesn't mean that: if I truly had the ability to appear to my taste- as I desired: which is simply nice haircut, armless shirts, pants, most-likely light wears, as I take every chance to work out, whenever I find myself to express my ADHD fire, as a Sagittarius.
But honestly, looking unkempt has made me someone others don't even send, like no one is trying to lie to me just to be associated or anything, that they rather feel free lying to others in my face, in my presence. For me, I would rather have whatever they would prefer, than trying to act to be around me. I prefer the honest truth of who you are, even if it would be you spitting on me, for every expression, if authentic and genuine, is preferred. Don't get me wrong. I am not saying I want people to express lack of love to me. I strongly understand If we are not lack of love, we would not express lack of love, and how we treat people is only about who we are and our relationship to what we all exist within.
Dress codes intended to control creative expression often forget that love is diversity, meaning because it is an infinite expression, that we never have repeated fingerprints, none wanting the same thing. But love would always be free will, meaning our individual feeling good is essentially crucial. This means, it's only stupidity, which is not caring to understand our inherent nature of love, in any connection. which emphasize that both sides feeling good must be first established before any connecting is made. If not, it is only but a matter of time before it goes back to no connection, as nothing is above love, would always resurface at the long run of things.
So our weak ideas of control, manipulation, no transparency to connect, is one party holding lack of love, as it is not caring to ensure that the other party feeling good is equally on the table. When we fail to see that whatever we do to another, we only do to ourselves and what we all exist within. For when a connection is built on one side feeling good, it is that side desperately begging for union that is against another's feeling good, and only hurting their own self and wasting time, as they are trying to please themselves above love, and only saying they want to be destroyed by all means. This is what we say when we try to place ourselves above love. When we manipulate, lie, hesitate to establish any connection, we are only begging for a connection and trying to place ourselves above love, as the other party's feeling good is equally as important as our free will,(the importance of agreement) For any connection to hold. And when we neglect or by one party, or manipulate or deceive into any connection, the gaining side
is trying to please themselves above love.
The connection whereby one side's feeling good is not important is only saying something is placed above love= Which is saying the connection? is more important than the feeling good of the other. And that is not love. Love is when we are all feeling good, where the both sides feeling good is what matters. Because love is the highest level of feeling good, and when we truly understand that, we will stop trying to control people, manipulate people, and force connections that are not in alignment with what both parties truly want.
We often forget that we are all connected to what we all exist within, and that whatever we do to another, we are only doing to ourselves. We fail to understand that love is not something we can force, control, or demand from another person. Love is something we allow to express itself freely, without taking away another person's ability to choose what feels good to them. When we truly understand this, we begin to see that a connection is not meant to be a place where one person is constantly sacrificing their own feeling good for the other person. It is meant to be a place where both people can exist as themselves, without having to pretend, perform, or abandon who they are just to keep the connection alive.
For when a connection is built on one person's feeling good at the expense of another, it is only a matter of time before the connection begins to fall apart. Because love cannot be sustained through fear, manipulation, or the constant suppression of another person's free will. We may be able to keep someone around for a while by making them feel guilty, by making them feel like they owe us something, or by making them believe that they are not good enough without us. But that is not love. That is a desire to control another person's experience, and it will always come back to us in one form or another.
We all want to feel good. We all want to be understood. We all want to be accepted for who we are, without having to become someone else just to be loved. Yet, we often find ourselves doing the very things that take away these experiences from others. We demand honesty while hiding our own truth. We demand loyalty while refusing to respect another person's free will. We demand love while making it difficult for another person to feel good around us. And somehow, we expect the connection to remain strong, even when we are not willing to establish the very things that make a connection meaningful.
This is why I believe that harmony must begin with the understanding that we all exist within love. The law of one, as I understand it, is not about forcing everyone to be the same or making everyone agree with us. It is about recognising that we are all part of the same existence, and that the feeling good of another person is not separate from what we all exist within. We may express ourselves differently, make different choices, and see things from different perspectives, but none of that takes away the importance of love.
Sometimes, what we call love is only our own response to the things we have experienced. We may have been hurt before, rejected before, or made to feel like we were not enough. And because of those experiences, we may find ourselves reacting to people in ways that have little to do with who they truly are. We may become defensive, controlling, suspicious, or afraid of being vulnerable. We may even convince ourselves that we are protecting love when we are actually protecting ourselves from the possibility of being hurt again.
But I wonder how often we stop to ask ourselves whether the way we are responding is truly love, or whether it is simply a response to something we have not yet understood within ourselves. How often do we mistake our fear for intuition, our insecurity for wisdom, or our need to control for a genuine desire to connect? How often do we hold another person responsible for experiences they did not create, simply because their presence reminds us of something we have been through before?
I am not saying that we should ignore our experiences or pretend that people cannot hurt us. I am saying that we must learn to recognise the difference between protecting our boundaries and allowing our past experiences to control how we relate to everyone we meet. We can choose not to remain in a connection that does not feel good to us. We can choose to walk away when we no longer feel safe, understood, or respected. But we must also be willing to look at ourselves honestly, because not every reaction we have is necessarily an expression of who we truly are.
Sometimes, we hurt people without even realising what we are doing. Sometimes, we repeat patterns we have learned from others. Sometimes, we become so occupied with proving that we are right that we forget to ask whether our actions are contributing to the very disconnection we claim to be suffering from. And sometimes, we do not even notice that we are trying to make another person feel what we once felt, as though transferring our pain to someone else could somehow make us feel better.
But love does not need another person to suffer for us to feel good. Love does not need to steal another person's peace in order to establish its own. Love does not need to deceive, manipulate, or diminish another person to prove its worth. When we truly understand this, we begin to recognise that the feeling good of both sides is not something we should only consider after a connection has been established. It is something we must be willing to consider from the beginning.
When we fail to understand this, we may begin to justify things that are not aligned with love. We may tell ourselves that it is okay to manipulate someone because we love them, or that it is okay to deceive someone because we are afraid of losing them. We may even believe that taking something from another person without their permission is acceptable because we think we deserve it, or because we believe that what we are taking should rightfully belong to us. But how can we say we are acting from love when we are not considering how our actions affect another person's feeling good?
I have been thinking about how we treat other people and how easily we sometimes find reasons to justify our own actions. For example, imagine someone who takes another person's idea and presents it as their own. They may convince themselves that it is not a big deal, that the original person will be fine, or that they simply needed the idea more than the person who created it. But what are we really saying when we do this? Are we saying that our own success is more important than another person's right to be acknowledged for what they have created?
And if we understand that we all exist within love, how can we continue to behave as though another person's experience is irrelevant to our own? How can we take something that someone else has created, benefit from it, and then act as though the person who created it does not matter? It is not only about the idea itself. It is about the relationship we have with honesty, respect, and the freedom of another person to express themselves without being exploited.
I think about the times when we have opportunities to do the right thing, even when nobody is watching. Imagine someone accidentally sends you more money than they intended to send. You notice that the amount is more than what you were supposed to receive. What do you do? Do you return the extra money because you understand that it does not belong to you, or do you keep it because you think the person should have been more careful?
Perhaps the person who sent the money may never discover the mistake. Perhaps they may not even ask you about it. But does that mean the money suddenly becomes yours? Does the absence of consequences change what we know about our own actions? And if we were the person who sent the money, would we not want the other person to tell us about the mistake and return what does not belong to them?
Another example is someone selling a bag. You agree on a price, make the payment, and then realise that the seller has given you more change than they should have. You could walk away without saying anything. You could tell yourself that it was the seller's mistake and that you have no obligation to correct it. But what happens when you stop and consider the other person's experience? What happens when you remember that the seller is also a person who has their own needs, responsibilities, and reasons for being there?
For me, these situations are not simply about money. They are opportunities to understand our relationship with love. They reveal what we do when our own advantage is placed beside another person's feeling good. Do we automatically choose what benefits us, or are we willing to consider what is fair to both sides?
And I am not saying that every mistake makes someone a bad person. We all make mistakes. We all have moments when we do not think deeply enough about the consequences of our actions. We may act out of ignorance, fear, pressure, or the things we have learned from the people around us. But the opportunity to recognise a mistake is also an opportunity to learn something about ourselves.
The important thing is what we do when we become aware. Do we acknowledge what happened and make an effort to correct it, or do we find more reasons to defend ourselves? Do we allow the experience to teach us something, or do we insist that we could not possibly have done anything wrong?
Sometimes, I think we are so afraid of admitting our mistakes that we forget that making a mistake does not have to become our identity. We can recognise what we have done without deciding that we are incapable of doing better. We can take responsibility without destroying ourselves with shame. We can learn, change, and make different choices when similar situations arise again.
This is important because love is not about pretending that we are perfect. It is about being willing to understand ourselves and how our actions affect the people around us. It is about recognising that we can be learning and still be worthy of love, while also understanding that being worthy of love does not mean we are free from responsibility for how we treat others.
I think about my mother's experiences, the things she went through when she was younger, and how those experiences may have influenced the way she relates to other people today. Sometimes, when we look at the way someone behaves, we see only the person standing in front of us. We do not see the child they once were, the things they had to endure, the things they were taught, or the experiences that shaped their understanding of love.
We may see someone who gives too much, someone who struggles to say no, someone who keeps helping people even when they are not receiving the same care in return. We may wonder why they continue to give to people who do not seem willing to give back. We may wonder why they keep making sacrifices for people who would not make similar sacrifices for them. But perhaps there are things within their experiences that we do not fully understand.
Perhaps they learned that love means giving everything, even when they have nothing left for themselves. Perhaps they learned that being accepted requires them to make themselves useful to other people. Perhaps they grew up believing that their own needs should always come second, or that they have to earn the right to be loved by constantly proving their worth.
And when we begin to consider these possibilities, we may find ourselves looking at their behaviour differently. Not necessarily agreeing with everything they do, or deciding that they should continue doing things that hurt them, but understanding that there may be more to their actions than what we can see on the surface.
This is why I believe understanding matters. When we understand ourselves and the experiences that have influenced us, we become better able to recognise the difference between what we genuinely want to express and what we have learned to do in order to survive, be accepted, or avoid rejection.
But understanding another person's experiences does not mean that we must abandon our own boundaries. We can understand why someone behaves a certain way and still recognise that the behaviour does not feel good to us. We can have compassion for what someone has experienced without making ourselves responsible for fixing everything they have ever been through. We can love someone and still acknowledge that both sides must be able to feel good for a connection to remain healthy.
Gratitude is only true when we are feeling good. Only when we are feeling good, which is the highest level of love, only when we are feeling the highest level of feeling good, which is who we are, who we truly are. That is our... So, our being. That is true self. Your true self must feel good genuinely, because love is the highest level of feeling good. We are only our best when we are genuinely feeling good. That is true. We are only our best when we are genuinely feeling good. We bless the earth with our vibration that causes increase in the land. So it is our positive feeling good that blesses the soil, that makes the soil rich to produce much more. So where you have people that are ungrateful, that don't have love, they can't bless the earth. They can only destroy the earth, because they are not feeling good. Because it is the energy of feeling good that makes the earth increase. Because love is everything positive. It will always increase. The cross sign is staying constant increases. Once you are seeing a cross sign, knowledge, understanding increases, plus, addition. That is what we do anytime we see a cross sign.
So you see love really will change anything. Feeling good is non-negotiable. The only love, awareness spreading, is how "the all" will withdraw or into itself, as all in one with love, we all exist within, and nothing can stop love from existing within. Even if we are only going conscious of the plain fact that what we are all existing inside is something that is alive, and is always listening. It is the understanding, it is the understanding that we are all, that we all exist within love, and it is alive, and no separation from it is ever possible at any point of our lives. It has only just been our limited awareness of what we all stand, believe, build and exist within that it is.
So I don't think writing a book for me is something I am on right now. Not to, not at all. Even though I honestly don't even know why I would be honestly interested to put a price on anything flowing through me. It is love we all exist within wanting to speak to itself without any conditions.
Who am I to put a price on it, limit its ability to express itself because I feel some people are worthy and others are not. And the ones who are worthy are those who get to buy it, and the ones who are not worthy don't end up getting to buy it.
Who made me the owner of what is flowing through me? I wonder. Did I create myself? It doesn't mean now that, just because I didn't create myself, I will now just let anybody touch me. Hell no!
This is boundaries. You want to still see me after reading my words. My feeling good has to be on the table. It is not a do or die affair. Like we never need to know each other. And I would always exist as long as the God within me keeps breathing. My feeling good is non-negotiable, honestly. It is not a request for an approval or validation, nor has anything to do with anything outside my consciousness.
The End 🔚
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